||[Feb. 6th, 2010|11:58 am]
Ryan and I broke up. God damn it. I know the relationship was a lot of hard work, but right now all I can think about are the awesome parts that I won't have anymore. |
I'm insanely busy for the next 3 days so that will probably be good. Going to Indianapolis today to ref a bout. Sunday I have a work meeting from 8-10, scrimmage from 12-2, a derby meeting from 2:15 to who knows when, a haircut at 5, and ref practice at 7. I probably shouldn't have committed to 2 practices on a day after I ref a bout and before league scrimmage. My feet are going to hate me. Maybe I should reschedule my haircut. I'm starting to panic a little about everything I'm trying to fit in tomorrow. Monday I work all day then have scrimmage. I'm going to be the most tired ever. That's probably a good thing.
Next Saturday I got invited to ref in Milwaukee, and the weekend after that is our next bout. Jimmy says to ref the pain away. Sounds good to me.
I miss Ryan. I've never known anyone like that boy...I wanted to be what he needed.